DEEP THOUGHTS
So today has, so far, been about a lot of deep thoughts.  Good ones, I should add, and some serious reflection on my part.  Sometimes I wish I had the ability to type out thoughts as they come to me - you know during those moments when what you think and realize are really profound.  We all have these moments, but I think we are too busy most of the time to notice them, and they escape with the millions of other thoughts that go through our minds.  Maybe a replay button would be nice on occasion.
Anyway, I was thinking seriously about no longer being the director of a little choir group I have at my church last week.  I was stressed out by life and just didn't feel as if I could offer anything of worth anymore.  I plugged through the practice anyway and came away feeling refreshed and renewed in ways that I haven't felt for months.  While getting ready this morning I kept thinking about this - about music and its affect on me - and realized just how important it really is to me.  I am incomplete without it, regardless of how I participate.  I was asked one time "why do you like to sing?"  My answer has changed throughout my life, but today I realized that it is more than just "liking" to sing.  I HAVE TO SING!! It is quite literally food for my spirit in the same way that food and sleep are fuel for my body.  I am only existing without it, but with it during it - I LIVE! I FEEL! I ALMOST SOAR!
I realize this might sound odd to someone who isn't affected in the same way, but we all have something that feeds our spirits and souls.  The trick is to find them. I like that we have to search for these things, but when we find it, what do we do then?  Hopefully we live our life with purpose and joy.  This is what I want to do and I decided to make it my mantra for the rest of the year.  LIVE EACH DAY WITH PURPOSE AND JOY!!
I know this is a lovely thought, but I really am going to give it a try.  Actually, when you think about it, what have you got to lose except maybe a bad day or two - right??
I also have been thinking a great deal about stuff!  You know the stuff you are surrounded by and live with.  The stuff that you spend your hard-earned money on.  Stuff like furniture, your appliances, your cars, decorations for your homes, everything in your kitchen, bedrooms, bathrooms, storage rooms, garages, drawers, dressers, and desks.  We spend a good portion of our life collecting this stuff.  It makes our life more comfortable, more entertaining, less time-consuming at the tasks we perform, yet when you really take a look at these things - what real, actual, worth are they.  Can I sell them and get my money back? (NO) the minute you take them into your home they become "used" and there is not monetary value in "used" items.  So the question is, "why do we spend so much of our money/time collecting this stuff if they have no real value?"  "Do we really need so much stuff?"  I've decided that I definitely do NOT! The rub is that once you have it all then what do you do with it?  Organizing takes more time and money, throwing it away is a waste of money, giving it away is a nice gesture but do you really know anyone who wants it?  Why do we do this to ourselves?  Why do we fill our space, our homes, with so much unnecessary stuff?  Someone help me make some sense of this.  In the meantime, I'm seriously considering having a yard sale and purging before the weather gets too cold.  Maybe if I can clear my surroundings slightly, I will be able to clear my head and my time - you know, the time it takes to care for all this stuff!!
Those are my thoughts for now.  Hopefully, that helped to clear my mind a bit.